Good snowy morning my lovely voodoo babies,
it’s 7:30 am on a blustery monday morning and i’m currently one handing this post while Sage sleeps in my arms. it’s the last month of the year so i thought i’d do a bit of reflecting on my 2017. this year was full of ups and downs, personal accomplishments, triumphs and downfalls, but i wouldn’t have it any other way. my year started off a little rocky but ended perfectly. i also got more involved with my craft in the last year, i’ve written half of my grimoire – as messy as it may be, it’s still mine and i am damn proud of it, i’ve even worked a few spells for some friends. i made a care package in october for my best friend that included a bunch of lovely magickal items to help her through her year and other things.
i’m working on becoming more organized and using my planner more than i have been, even if i just write out my blog schedule that would be good enough for me. i have to work on setting time aside for creative time; and in that creative time i’d like to read, work on my grimoire and write in my planner some more. since the baby i’ve kind of let my creative time fall to the wayside – but taking care of a mini human takes up a lot of time. it’s totally worth it but i have to remember to set aside “me time” as well. whether that’s relaxing in the tub with a bathbomb and a good book or writing a blog post, or even writing in my grimoire – i’ve also started a daily hand written journal that includes all of my daily thoughts from what to add into my grimoire, to what i dreamed about that night, to my monthly/weekly goals, etc. they’re called brain dump journals and aside from daily blogging it’s also good to dump your brain with pen and paper as well.
the first few months of the new year were just like any other, full of work and recuperating after the gouges our wallets took from the holidays. by february i had been sick almost every day that month and i couldn’t figure out why, cody encouraged me to take a pregnancy test and i put it off until a few days after my birthday – truth be told i was scared – but i also wasn’t hoping for anything because i had been told by many doctors that my chances for conceiving were slim to none. so on march 4th, 2017 at 8am i took my first pregnancy test; i waited for what seemed like an eternity and sure enough two little pink lines showed up – i was in such disbelief i took two more tests right after. i woke cody up with a loving “good morning daddy” and showed him the positive tests – we both kind of just laid in bed and cried and held each other, we were so happy that we’d be able to expand our family with a real baby and not just another fur baby.
the months from march to about may were a bit hectic, it was full of morning sickness (which was really all day sickness) and doctors appointments. in june we said good bye to our first ever apartment and moved in with a couple of friends until our new apartment was ready. at the end of july i had my baby shower – i chose to have it in the summer so that everyone whom i invited could make it without having to deal with crappy weather, it was a huge success and i got to see some friends i hadn’t seen since probably three summers ago. it was a long and hot summer and being pregnant in 30+ degree weather isn’t the most ideal and it sucked a lot. we stayed with our friends until the end of september and by october we were in our brand new apartment. we also got a new kitten about 4 days before i went into labor, we named her Bailey.
in the midst of our crazy year, i rekindled a friendship with a friend i wish i’d never stopped talking to. i was a bit skeptical at first, not going to lie – but i’m so happy that her and i reached out to each other because we were definitely destined to be friends. she is my heterosexual other half, my twin, my bestie, my sister. i am so thankful that the goddess brought us back together. she gets me like none of my other friends never have. i’ve had friendships that had strong bonds but none that run as deep as mine and hers, we go down to the roots. we literally are the same person, it’s quite freaky. our brains are synced and on the same wavelength and that is something you just can’t fake. the only regret i have is wasting almost a year shutting her out of my life when i could have been working on our relationship – but it’s not even a regret, because even in the short time we’ve been speaking again it’s like nothing ever changed between us. the person trying to drive a wedge between us just doesn’t exist anymore, they have issues with us being friends but that’s their problem.
speaking of issues – the problem i dealt with over a year ago has apparently not gone away. it would seem that i’m still being copied left, right, and center. this person is like herpes, goes away for a bit and then comes back like nasty, oozing, festering sores on your naughty bits. i’ve done my best to just block them out of my life, quite literally and also spiritually. i’ve done everything i could with my craft to get them to just back off – binding spells, banishment spells, wearing black tourmaline, they clearly just aren’t getting the hint. i have also tried literally blocking them off every type of social media and it’s like they have minions around every corner reporting back to them, or they’ve just found a way to look at all of my stuff. i’ve tried to deal with it and go with the whole “imitation is the most sincerest form of flattery” but like i said, it’s getting old. it can be quite entertaining though, watching them try and turn it around on me, knowing the kind of evil person they are at their rotten core and the fact that everyone is catching on to their little games is quite amusing. watching them try to copy my life verbatim is also quite hilarious; watching them be tough and say “mean” things over social media and then delete them right away are absolutely hilarious, everyone’s a keyboard warrior from the comfort of their own homes while hiding behind their stolen phone screens and computers. i guess old dogs really don’t learn new tricks.
despite all the drama that’s gone on in the last year, the good definitely outweighs it all. this year wasn’t a total drag considering our christmas gift came early in the form of our beautiful daughter. and speaking of christmas/Yule, my husband and i are celebrating our second christmas together and this year we’ve decided to do a Yule celebration as well after our christmas celebrations with our families. we’ve made plans with both sides of our families this year and hopefully it won’t be as hectic as last years ordeal. our house is the most decorated it’s ever been for any holiday. i’ve definitely fallen in love with winter and the Yuletide season, i’ve fallen in love with the snow, the feelings you get when you can feel christmas/Yule in the air, i’ve even fallen in love with christmas music. the fact that our daughter is with us makes it even more magickal, even if she won’t remember her first christmas – it’s more for cody and i. these are memories we can share with her when she’s older when she asks what her first christmas/Yule was like.
all in all, i’d rate this year a solid 9 out of 10. from page one to page three hundred and sixty five it’s been a long and strange trip. i’m excited to end this year on a positive note and start the first page of 2018 with my little family. i’m excited to go into another brand new year with my husband by my side and our daughter in our arms. i couldn’t ask for a better family, i couldn’t ask for a better life. the goddess truly blessed me and i am forever thankful for her gifts to me. i’ve set a bunch of new goals and aspirations for myself for 2018 as well, but i’ll save that for my next post.
with that, this monstrous blog post comes to and end.
remember to keep it surreal my voodoo babies,